Of Tears and Blood

Nicholas Ryan Howard

A journey into the creative consciousness alongside those who have spilled blood, sweat and tears in relentlessly pursuing their craft. Features intimate interviews with talent who have created and performed on the public stage, and facilitation of those who are working through their deepest challenges. Nicholas Ryan Howard unapologetically takes the most honest, raw, and vulnerable approach possible to the topic, in a way no one else ever has.

All Episodes

Nicholas Ryan Howard serves as the facilitator working with Tess at The University of Santa Monica in Santa Monica, CA on understanding the work beyond creation, accessing goddess mode, and into expansion of the creative consciousness.

Nov 15

33 min 20 sec

Willy Berton is a chef with more than 20 years of experience. Combining a passion for food and ethical dining, he opened Vegan Gorilla, a restaurant which is organic, vegan, and dairy / gluten-free, as well as Amour Pâtisserie végétale, a vegan and gluten free bakery. Vegan Gorilla obtained the distinguished title of maitre restaurateur, and subsequently received a Michelin Bib Gourmand, a first for a vegan restaurant. His eco-friendly approach has helped usher in this new paradigm in fine dining to Nice.

Nov 8

31 min 52 sec

Camille Grenier is an actor, writer, and educator. She worked at the prestigious cinema channel Canal Pluzz in Paris, and as a performer she has worked in television shows and films such as "Drone Wars," "Adaline," and "The Tale of Allen Grey." She hosted and produced the "The Arrogant Frenchie Show" for the radio, and teaches camera performance and public speaking. Currently she is a volunteer for charitable causes, and in development on a television series she is writing and directing.

Nov 1

53 min 48 sec

Brian Bell is a stage director and performer based in Berlin. His production of “The Feast” was nominated for an award for Best New Play in Chicago. He made his German National Theater directorial debut with “Killer Joe,” and his production of “Stella” at the Stadttheater Ingolstadt was nominated for a German Musical Theater Award. He is also the artistic director of Shakespeariment, and the writer of a new adaptation of H.G. Wells’ “The Time Machine,” which he will direct at the Theater Heilbronn.

Oct 25

1 hr 13 min

Nicholas Ryan Howard serves as the facilitator working with Luna in the lobby of The Hollywood Roosevelt Hotel in Hollywood, CA on navigating depression to return to creation, converting doubt into motivation, and into expansion of the creative consciousness.

Oct 18

49 min 31 sec

Patrick Robart is a painter who works and resides in the Cité de Carcassonne—the citadel itself. Born in Calais, he studied the arts and was later appointed educator of art at the lycée in Carcassonne. Over time, Patrick Robart and his work have become a part of the culture of the region. His subjects are his luscious surroundings: the hills of the Corbières, the lakes of the Montagne Noire, the beaches of the Mediterranean, the southern French markets, the Canal du Midi and the ancient Cité of Carcassonne.

Oct 10

39 min 9 sec

Peter Wu+ is an artist with work that spans a myriad of mediums, formats, and methodologies. Combining animation, projection mapping, 3D printing, immersive environments, and machine learning, his groundbreaking work has been displayed in galleries around the world. In addition to the numerous exhibitions, awards, and accolades he has received for his own work, Peter also supports education and the art community, and is the founder and creator of the EPOCH Gallery, an artist-run virtual experiment.

Sep 17

42 min 22 sec

While on a flight to Europe, Nicholas Ryan Howard serves as the facilitator working with a passenger named Tim on shifting our default setting of being hard on ourselves, on using compassion to overcome rejection, on releasing patterns of keeping ourselves busy, and in the expansion of the creative consciousness.

Sep 9

36 min 58 sec

Deborah Lurie is a composer, arranger, music producer, and entrepreneur. She was once hailed by Variety as the most successful American female film composer in terms of box office, and has created the musical soundscapes for feature films, television shows, musicals, and albums, including the highest-grossing concert movie of all time. Her unique musical approach is derived from deep technical knowledge, modern innovation, and timeless melody.

Aug 27

1 hr 5 min

Haley Lu Richardson is a dancer and an actor. She has earned critical acclaim for her performances in films such as "The Edge of Seventeen," "Split," and "Columbus," as well as for her MTV Award nominated performance in "Five Feet Apart." She recently starred in the HBO Max dramedy "Unpregnant," and will be playing the role of Ada in the upcoming sci-fi drama "After Yang."

Aug 19

1 hr 1 min

The career of Meagan Adele Lopez spans film, television, and theatre. She directed a series of plays in Paris, produced the music video for the artist CLARA-NOVA, and led the New York Times global digital advertising team. Her directorial debut "Raging Cult" earned her six film festival awards, and she is in post-production for her first feature film, "Through the Eyes of Others." She recently completed her second novel and is celebrating the release of her recent TED talk.

Aug 12

53 min 55 sec

Jamie Kennedy is an actor, writer, producer, and stand-up comedian. He wrote and starred in "Malibu’s Most Wanted," and created / hosted the hugely trendsetting "Jamie Kennedy Experiment." He has played leading roles and appeared in dozens of films and TV shows including Wes Craven’s "Scream," "Criminal Minds," "Funny You Should Ask," "Ghost Whisperer," Baz Luhrmann’s "Romeo + Juliet," and the "Tremors" film franchise. Currently, Jamie hosts his own podcast and performs stand-up comedy worldwide.

Aug 2

50 min 19 sec

Nicholas Ryan Howard serves as the facilitator working with Aurora in Saint-Cloud, France on releasing ingrained beliefs, clearing patterns of giving up, and the expansion of their creative consciousness.

Jul 21

45 min 57 sec

Keegan Allen is an actor, photographer, and author. He played the role of Toby in the hit series "Pretty Little Liars," and is the author of two best-selling books. After bold performances in feature films such as "King Cobra" and "No Escape"—also known internationally as "Follow Me"—he is now starring as Liam Walker in "Walker," the Texas Ranger reboot on the CW. Join Keegan Allen and host Nicholas Ryan Howard fireside in a cozy cabin in Sequoia National Park.

Jul 8

52 min 40 sec

Keegan Allen is an actor, photographer, and author. He played the role of Toby in the hit series "Pretty Little Liars," and is the author of two best-selling books. After bold performances in feature films such as "King Cobra" and "No Escape"—also known internationally as "Follow Me"—he is now starring as Liam Walker in "Walker," the Texas Ranger reboot on the CW. Join Keegan Allen and host Nicholas Ryan Howard in their hike through the snow, deep in Sequoia National Park.

May 22

51 min 37 sec

Welcome to "Of Tears and Blood," where we explore the raw truths of the creative process.

May 1

8 min 47 sec