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#342 When Your Trauma Informs Your Turn Ons

By Paul Gilmartin

Why do some people enjoy physical pain or become aroused by it? For Kal, the discovery came with a lot of complications; he was a young boy and it was at the hands of a powerful and sadistic pedophile Rabbi (Heshy Brier) who is now a fugitive living in Israel. Kal shares about his years of self-destruction and bottoming out before eventually getting sober and starting the process of healing and advocating for other survivors. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy. To try a week for free go to  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by BlueApron. To get your first 3 meals free with FREE delivery, go to  To become a monthly donor (and qualify for bonus content and goodies from Paul like the upcoming raffle for a free hotel at LAPodfest Oct 6-8) go to  To learn more about LAPodfest go to  To help fund Paul's next trip to record international guests, especially in Ireland, go to  To make a one-time donations via Paypal go to  Help the podcast by shopping with our podcast's Amazon link (it doesn't make your product any more expensive - even bookmark it!)

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