We step out on the rational sidewalk, lit with endlessly blinking and clanking machines. Middleway traffic's so heavy you can't see the opposite side, but that's where we want to go. Red lights, pushing people and coughing, grinding vehicles makes it a frightening struggle to cross. But we push back and press on.
On the emotional sidewalk it is worryingly silent and dark. It used to bathe
in the comforting music of a good life lived, like the friendly humming of a dishwasher left going over night. But now, only hollow echos of random opposite-side merchandize leaks through, trashing its sterile sound bleeps between the abandoned houses.
I notice cracks in the paving stone where the old bands used to play.
We kickstart a dead street lamp and gather around the light. The new shadows reduce our visibility and grows the pavement cracks larger. A moving, low frequency rumble starts to roll from a cross street. It's out of our sight but in our control. It's not much but we can work with it. We have bad memories. We are not perfect. But we have sound experience. We have train wrecks of emotional loops that can be sampled and put in a logical sequencential railway.
It will make sense. We owe that much to our sidewalk and the humming dishwasher.
Members: John, Fredrik, Jesper