I decided to stop taking self pity and stop giving kindness to those who didn't deserve it.
Long story short:
I rented a room in the @rechenzentrum (a beautiful place in my favourite city: Potsdam), I put all my stuff in there and searched for: "how to produce" on youtube.
Four frustrating months later, I finally had something to show: my first self-made demo.
I kept going, kept evolving and found my sound. something that we casually call Donner-Pop.
We? Me and Adam Wendler, a friend that I luckily found on this journey. A Canadian songwriter based in Berlin, who would come to my studio almost every week. Every week we'd create something special, every week I felt my skill set growing. I didn't let many people work with me on my songs, in fact, Adam and the mixer/masterers are the only ones.
I'm still not a professional producer, I might never be, but I found a method that works for me right now. I'm happy and proud of the results and I look forward to getting better and better.
This is a new era for me and I can't wait to share more songs with you.