I was born into this world being a happy and lighthearted guy. Though I liked listening to heavy emotional songs, I never understood the darkness, until 3 years ago.
I started getting totally black days of depression, being completely empty, and sad inside like I didn’t know existed, with no reason really. These days became more often, in some weeks several days in a row. It got to an extreme, and I had to treat it as an illness, so I stopped crafting songs for other artists, and I started writing only as therapy. In trying to deal with the dark side, everything I sing about is stuff i’m going through. I also drum, because it’s the only way I know how to move to music, I can’t dance, so I drum. I’m for sure the slowest producer I know of,and I throw most ideas away, tweak my songs endlessly, not because I enjoy it, it just takes me forever before I feel it sounds ready for a stranger’s ear. I’m a strong male person, but i’m not ashamed of sharing my journey in finding a way to live with depression. I need to get out of my head more, and it definitely helps to be open about it, especially through writing songs. in all honesty, it’s been a while since I felt some butterflies in my stomach about anything, but now I feel sparks doing this. So here I am, releasing my own songs for the first time in my life.